I am so sick of feeling the pressure to change something about me just to get someone else's approval only to find out that another person doesn't like that version of me. It's a vicious cyclone I've been riding as long as I can remember.
And it's only gotten worse since I've gotten to college. I have to be one person for professor, but wait, that person is to ditzy. So I change it. Then I'm too uptight and no fun for my class mates. "You should try harder" from one person...then I get a "stop worrying and stressing yourself out" from the same person. How can I be what someone else wants me to be. Why can't I just develop my own concept of who I want to be? I know it's not ultimately up to me, but seriously, can I get some support for me being me?
Maybe I'm just far too passionate for this world. Music is all I know. I can't do anything else. Nothing. If there's something I believe in, I am going to stand by it no matter what. If there's something that I'm excited about, everyone will probably know I'm excited. When I'm upset, it's a whole new level of sadness. My highs sky rocket and my lows are gastronomically low. The point is, I'm happy with me. I don't have any intentions of changing me. Sure I can change the way I do certain things, but I refuse to become a different person because of other people.
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