I am so stupid.

The title says it all. What the hell was I thinking when I signed up for a class that drags on all summer long? I'm so behind right now. I have 3 quizzes I still have to take and I haven't even gotten to the chapters I need to read for those quizzes yet.


My practicing schedule is terrible. I need some kind of motivation, a real kick in the ass to wake me up. I need to join a community band or something....


I thought I was getting everything accomplished this summer, working part time at BCBG earning $8 an hour and getting commission, playing mommy for my overworked (and masters student) mother, this damn online public speaking, practicing, socialization. I think I clearly wanted a summer with nothing to do except work and practice. Let's take out the mommy and online class crap. Life would be so much better.


Other than those few setbacks, life is wonderful. I spent the weekend with my wonderful boyfriend whom I love very much. I stayed at his house with his family. It's nice feeling accepted there. Staying there for a few days was truly a much needed vacation. His family is so chill. They get what they need to get done and don't stress about it. I wish I could say the same about my high strung family. Boo. I cannot wait until they go on vacation down south for a few days and leave me here by my lonesome. It shall be a magnificent few days.

Okay, back to business. I'm not eating nor am I leaving this room until I:

1. Read all 6 chapters and take good notes/read the lecture online.
2. Take the 2 quizzes that go with the reading.
3. Warm up my euphonium chops.
4. Go through every exercise more than once that I have marked in my arbans book. Mmmmmm fundamentals, how juicy.
5. ....No. Everything I have above will take me at least 4 hours.


So much for going on a run tonight....I'm just going to be locked up in my room.
I deserve this.



sweetv