ch-ch-ch-changes

I don't know what to do anymore.


I feel very empty and worthless.

WHY ME?



It's going to be a night of lots of coffee and pondering.




It's not as thought I'm sitting here asking people to pity me. I would like to avoid that at all costs.

So DON'T pity me, people. I don't want anyone's sympathy.


I need to get away and reevaluate my own life, take a good hard look at what I've done and who I've amounted to....


Conclusions I've come to thus far:

-I'm a selfish, impatient, rude little pig.

-I have the appearance of being a complete material girl.

-I've broken promises, broken relationships, and some trust along the way.

-I will live in misery like this forever if it doesn't stop.

-I HAVE to get out of this city. Living here is literally killing me. I'm suffocating here. I need fresh air, a new beginning. I need to get out of this bubble I'm currently trapped in.

-I know I will eventually, but that's not soon enough.





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