Independence is Essential

Once upon a time,

The title should say it all. I have been far too dependent on individuals lately, one in particular, my boyfriend. I love him very much and I know the feelings are reciprocated.

HOWEVER.....

It has come to my attention in the last few weeks that I have been far too clingy and dependent on him to make me happy. What's wrong with this, you ask?

EVERYTHING!!

Why should I rely on him to make me happy? Sure he's great and all, but by no way, my key and answer to everything.

I need to set a goal with a few objectives in mind to address this issue.

Oh, yeeeeeeeahhh, I'm doing this in the fashion of a true music therapist.

Goal: Client will lose clinginess trait.

^^^okay, it sounds silly and unprofessional, oh well, I'm using it.

Objectives:

1. Client will spend at least 3 nights in own dorm room every week

2. Client will spend time with other friends and acquaintances (at least 2) during the week instead of spending time with said significant other.

3. Client will quit revolving schedule around said significant other at all times.

That wasn't so bad....

Let's see now, treatment plan?

~In order to avoid awkward question of where client is spending evening, client will get practicing and other work done in swope as early as possible, then use library for other, and use ipod for walk back to North.

~Client will make an effort to spend plenty of time with other friends and acquaintances during evenings and weekends by asking ahead of time.

~Client will write out personal daily schedule with ONLY self in mind.

I need a contingency plan....

~If client follows all of these objectives, client can spend one extra night at significant other's

~If client fails to follow these objectives, a full week of evenings in North is eminent.

This is good. I will not become another clingy girlfriend. I REFUSE. I probably look like a huge psycho typing all of this, but I don't care. This is for my own good, my personal and emotional health.

Perish the thought, but say we break up. I took some time to ponder this. It was that moment when I realized how much I rely on him for everything. Transportation, food, love, comfort, fun, joy, too damn much.

Say anything were to happen, I'll be able to spring back up on my feet right away. I've fallen for this guy and I've fallen hard. It's really pathetic, but the path I've chosen. I don't know how it happened. There must be a reason that it has though.

On another note, typing this entry has made me terribly late.

Until another day....

sweetv