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I have no title for this post.

Don't ask me why. For some reason, I just feel so...hollow.

I have everything going for me. I have loved ones, a bright future if I continue to work for it, I have no reason to feel the way I do now.

I feel almost as though every positive thing in my life just comprises the shell, but inside it's as hollow as an old desolate cave. What am I to do to fill this void in my life?

What the hell has happened to me this past year? I used to stand for something. I used to have all of the answers. I used to be bubbling over with copious amounts of joy.

I've been putting all of my faith and trust in people. I've got late, breaking news. People SUCK. They constantly let you down. As depressing as it is, it's completely true. I can just keep lying to myself saying that all I need is love from my friends, family and significant other. I mean, that's what I really have been doing all along, isn't it?

I just was reminded of it not too long ago.

Sometimes I make myself sick. What right do I have to complain like this? I must look like some whiny, spoiled brat. I have every reason to be the happiest girl in the world. Yet, I can't keep forcing myself to feel that way.

I want someone to notice my feelings (or lack thereof). I wish just one person could see through this pathetic facade I've tried to put up. I can't just approach someone and let them in to see this part of me. It would either scare them away or make them think I'm suicidal.

Help.

sweetv