Why is everything going so wrong?

Whenever I think that the negatives in my life are bigger than the positive, everything falls apart. This calls for a list of all of the ways I am blessed.

....but let's just see a list of quick negatives
-I scheduled my work times all wrong with concert times and dress rehearsals. The next two weekends I won't be able to work 4 shifts. NOT GOOD. My ass is on the line for being fired (probably..it's not like I bring anything great to the store)
-My throat feels swollen.
-My lips feel like cardboard and my playing is very difficult and inconsistent to say the least.
-I also have developed a nice large cold sore in the center of my bottom lip. Hooray.
-Shin splints. I just keep running on them to stick to my plan and they keep getting worse.
-Lately I get the idea that some people I thought I was close to only like me because they know I'll listen and bend over backwards for them. While this is true, I'd like to think that the friendship could be reciprocated. One sided friendships are lame.
-I'm getting super dark lately..on a lot of matters and people.
-My level of self pity is going through the roof.

I'd better stop there.

Now, some ways in which I am blessed.

-I have a job (for the time being) and I make my own money. I appreciate its' value and as a result am more grateful for what little I have unlike some college kids who's parents pay for everything.
-My body is still functioning normally for the most part. My organs are in good health, I'm not struggling with any type of disease, I have two fine legs that still take me places, you get the point.
-This callas on my lips is surely not permanent. Neither is the cold sore.
-People are always going to disappoint you. That's why He's here for me. Plus, not everyone I talk to is like the way I mentioned above.
-This darkness is probably just a phase and a result of stress, little sleep, and being overworked.





I feel better already!


....sort of...