Keep my heart somewhere drugs don't go, where the sunshine's rays always keep me close

Once upon a time,

I became all nostalgic while listening to some Jimmy Eat World (from the Futures album, brah!)

I started thinking of where I was exactly 2 years ago today. So many things have changed:

-I grew some balls, not literally, I swear.

-I broke out of my metaphorical shell.

-I fell in love.

-I had my heart broken

-I broke someone's heart

-I discovered it's hard to say goodbye (no, not just in the romantic world)

-I lost my childish trust in mankind

-I quit carrying my heart on my sleeve.

-I developed new and improved relationships with others.

-I dropped some uneccessary baggage

-I dropped some vital necessities along the way

-I decided to pursue my two strongest passions in the world: helping others and making music

Then again, it seems like some things NEVER change:

-I'm still some what of a people pleaser

-Still the same awkward loser.

-Still a certified virgin. ( I need some kind of gold plaque commemorating this achievement)

-Still a procrastinator

-Still a stupid blonde (no matter what color I dye my hairs)

So what now? Obviously I know I need to work on some and ONLY SOME of those unchanged features up there. On the other hand, I have too, too many regrets in the first list.

Regrets, can't live with them, so why not live and let die? I always think "what if" this and that.

Honestly, I think it's holding me back from fixing the root of the problem.

Oh, I forgot to list another unchanged trait: I'm still a selfish, inconsiderate child. Deep down, I like having things my way.

Nostalgic state over.

My fingers are becoming callused. I can't feel my left pointer, middle, and ring finger. I love it. Guitar is going to be so much easier now. I'd better keep these babies.

Now, I must get back to some homework and practicing. Enough procrastination..

...For now anyway.

tootles 8-)

sweetv

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