I ended something going nowhere. A dead end relationship. Wait, I don't think it was even a real relationship. It was a hot mess of hook ups and sick attachment....
and I just ended it once and for all.
I feel the shackles of controlling male chauvinism coming loose.
It's not as though the relationship (we'll just call it that for now) was God awful..
We had some good times, I suppose.
On the other hand....
He insisted on using disgusting pet names. My name is NOT baby, babe, sweetheart, dear, etc.
PDA was a must with him. Such affections can be shown elsewhere.
The boy could not bring himself to spell out words in text messages and e-mails. The phrase " how r u?" means virtually nothing in my book. I don't see a full sentence there.
He wanted to be with me all of the time...
He always insisted on knowing where I was, who I was with. I almost called him Mom a few times...
I have reason to believe he tried mighty hard to take advantage of me while I was foolishly under the influence of some mighty good vodka.
and although he was a good smoocher....
HE TRIED SUCKING FACE WITH ME ALL THE EFFING TIME!
Anyways.
I definitely have feelings for someone else. Someone older, way out of my league. I've had these feelings for a while now. It doesn't seem fair that I can stay with Mr. Wrong while my heart is somewhere else. It's not like anything will really happen with this other individual. Only time will tell? That phrase sounded too cliche and corny. The point is, I'm not going to feel so guilty now even if nothing does happen.
So this little jig with Mr. Wrong is all over now.
I will not be tied down.
Forget that.
I feel giddy.
Even more giddy than I did in a previous post where I thought I had feelings for this individual.
Hah.
Back to work for me.
sweetv
